Letting Go

We consume.  We binge. We purge. We move on.

Until the cycle begins anew.

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"All my little plans and schemes were nothing but a bunch of dreams....."- J.Lennon

Ungrateful Heart

 

Catarì, Catarì,
pecche' me dice sti parole amare?
pecche' me parle, e 'o core me turmiente,
Catarì?
Nun te scurda' ca t'aggio dato 'o core,
Catarì, nun te scurda'!
Catarì, Catarì,
che vene a dicere
stu parla' ca me da spaseme?
Tu nun ce pienze a stu dulore mio
tu nun ce pienze, tu nun te ne cure.
Core, core 'ngrato,
t'haie pigliato 'a vita mia,
tutt'e' passato
e nun ce pienze cchiu'!

Catarì, Catarì
tu nun o saie ca 'nfino int''a na chiesa
io so' trasuto e aggio priato a Dio,
Catarì
e ll'aggio ditto pure a 'o cunfessore
I' sto' a suffrì pe chella lla'!
Sto a suffrì, sto a suffrì
nun se po credere
sto' a suffrì tutte li strazie
e 'o cunfessore ch'e' persona santa
m'ha ditto: figlio mio, lassala sta', lassala sta'!
Core, core 'ngrato
t'hai pigliato a vita mia.....

I Know You.....

I know you come here
Your friends come to visit
Suspicion and curiosity abound.

I know you come here
to see how I feel
to see what I right
to know what is real.

I know you come here
to hurt and to learn
to know about the hearts
the ones that you burned.

I know that you come here
and think I'll post songs
or words of love
things that don't belong.

I know that you come here
to see that I hurt
to feel disrespected
to see what you're worth.

I know that you come here
to help feel bad
to see if I'm happy
to know I am sad.

I know that you come here
because you can't let go
because deep inside
you know what you know.

It shows......

Dr. Teeth Vs. The Virus

Well Dr. Teeth has once again found himself fighting of another Virus.  He allowed it to take over total control of his judgement and sense of self worth.  What he doesn't seem to realize is you can't get worthiness from someone who feels worthless.  You can't get consistency from chaos.  You can't get balance from the unbalanced.

Yet he tries! Over and over again he tries.  He gives of himself to such extreme's in the hopes of getting drops of water in return.  The more the Virus pulls away, the more he tries to hold on. 

Then he realized the Virus was consuming him. Using his energy and dedication to find some glimmer of hope in its hopeless exsistence.  So lost in its own pain it didn't realize nor care the pain it was causing him.  But he kept on trying.  Promising undying dedication to someone who couldn't even be bothered to ask him out for a cup of coffee or time at a movie.  No, he sat there waiting......

The depressing fact is that from early on he knew the Virus would consume him, yet he did nothing.  He invited the Virus to ravage his stability, happiness, and sense of pride.  He saw the red flag and draped it over his body. He saw the warning signs as a road map toward her. 

And when he thought he was done with the Virus and could claim some small victory as he tried to move on with his life, the Virus called.  Unable to travel, he quickly drove to its aid.  Now he was not only being ravaged by the Virus but he was trying to nurse it back to health so that it could regain its strength to do more damage.

And damage it did.  The Virus is selfish.  The Virus is self absorbed.  The Virus lies.  The Virus uses and ultimately consumes what's in its path.

And he was consumed.  Until he exorcised the Virus from his body.  He made a choice and did what was right!! He took a stand and told the Virus, "You will no longer ravage my heart and my mind. And you will no longer drink of my heart nor feast on my love."

"The Camel dances, and having danced, moves on...."- J. Lennon