Some go out a fuck whomever.
Some drink, and drink a lot.
Many smoke weed.
Some will do cocaine.
But oh so many will pop Xanax, Klonipin, or Valum.
But when you're in recovery you cannot really rely on any of that, except maybe the sex unless its risky, unsafe and craigslisty sort of sex.
Sometimes as a person in recovery I am pissed because I don't get to shut down like everyone else. I am not allowed to escape.
Sure I take Klonipin, but its for anxiety and I don't abuse it.
There are times lately when I just want to disappear in a cloud of marijuana smoke.
Something to make me forget my woes and cares and just float away.
There is honor in being sober, but supposedly there is also honor in having your leg blown off by an IED in Iraq..... go fuck yourself.
Today I am jealous and envious of those who are allowed to smoke, drink and float away.
Youve been doing so well sober!! Keep up the good work :-) Don't be jealous of those who are still in their addiction(s)!
ReplyDeleteYeah Yeah Yeah!! But I wanna get high an roll some blunts wit some of my nigga's.
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